New York.....Weekend of Intensity.....
Emailing one another for a couple months had me face to face one evening with David. Then last night with Rafael. Both of which offered the use of their holes to pay homage to Monster and I in whatever way we saw fit. Another gentleman having never experienced male to male contact on an intimate level. Never having kissed, been held, nor touched or licked or...... "down there." Creating an atmosphere of trust before we even met through many different avenues. My videos, reviews, visiting my web site, emales, and reading articles written about Monster and I. My prowess is certainly talked about in the many of the writings. Also talked about are the many levels of my career and me as a person. My career and life simply amaze me on daily, and sometimes hourly basis. Enjoying every facet. Of course there is always good and bad to everything. Understanding that you need to experience them both in order to discern one from another. Make sense? This entry is very deep in my thoughts. Reason being, the experiences over the past few days has left me this way. Sitting at the Big Cup, a well visited coffee house in Chelsea. I am coming UP on three years of recovery from a lifestyle that had me behind walls that squashed any sort of aspirations or dreams that I could have a life such as I have now. I have so much gratitude it hurts some times. Grateful for the life and to have walked away from the drug culture with as many brain cells as I do! LOL! Seriously though. There are many that ran right along side me, or I them. Some can`t form words for sentences, some are lost without what seems to be a way back, and some, if not most, are dead. This weekend I have men submitting to a part of me which I have come to realize is my inner most self. Allowing me to control. Not out of fear. Out of the understanding that you can put your self in my hands and walk away from the experience with a smile from ear to ear. Not only on their part. Also, very much on mine. That`s quite a responsibility to take on. Sometimes not even understanding how much it really is until after the fact. Receiving an emale from David thanking me profusely about the evening. Helping him to over come some past obstacles, of trust and non belief. Smashing the perception that he couldn`t have them. Quoting David, "Fantasies becoming reality." I wonder if he knows that is one of my quotes. I believe it is on my AOL profile. "Let`s make fantasy become reality." Amazing, who could have known that one could get so much insight from a career that has such a negative. Suffice to say, they were well taken care of. In the receiving of their homage, Monster and I were just as well taken care of. One can turn over their sexual being to me and rest assure that it is very good hands. Possibly the one to understand this more than anyone else, would be me! Sex is such a powerful entity. I believe that is enough introspect for me.
Keeping it hard and well lubed..... Michael Brandon
