ME....fucking.....ME....What?
Good afternoon guys/gals/friends/fans and family...
I hope this journal entry finds everyone doing well. As for me? Well, I have to tell you. Monster and me are back on the road again. On our way to Cleveland, Ohio to be part of their leather weekend. Anyhow, more on that after the weekend is done. I am sure by then I will have plenty to share with y’all.
As you can see by the last entry! It’s been some time since I have been UP to nasty stuff! Well, OK, that’s a damn lie! I’ve been UP to nasty stuff. Just haven’t been UP to writing about it. I have been playing catch UP since being down for the count by bacterial pneumonia. Sickest I have ever been. 4 days in the hospital on the east coast. A total of six and a half weeks of clearing my schedule of all travel and promotions. This is the first trip since being sick! I’m back though! Not 100 % just yet! Pretty damn close. Close enough to give Cleveland a good time this weekend.
Below is what I had started telling you guys...It’s been a while since this very momentous day in Berlin! Actually, it was night. Early morning. OK, I will stop splitting hairs. Get your ID Lube out and get ready to rock your cock...
February 26, 2004
Cold dark night in Berlin. I hadn’t slept well for two days because of the darn time difference. So, out to the streets I go. Cold as a witches tit. No one roaming around. . All sorts of noise and music coming from the after hours bars. Tempted to walk in and get my horny nutt off. Always easier to go to sleep after shooting a wad of cum all over yourself. Or, even better yet, someone else. Wasn’t really looking for a crowd thing. Looking more for one on one I guess. Feeling a bit out of place to be honest with you.
Jacking off isn’t something I am in to so much any more. My line of work has my loads being brought out by men all around the world. Why waste it on myself. I could jump on line and find someone to stop by. Oops, can’t do that. I’m not able to log on to AOL. L That sucks. I know there are other chat choices. I’m not versed in them though. Anything outside AOL. I’m like a little lost puppy.
So, I roam the quiet streets of Berlin. Beautiful city. Not sure if I am watching the city awaken? Or, go to sleep. It’s a late city for sure. I suppose the end of someone’s day. Is the beginning of another. Huh? As I mention earlier though. Feeling a bit out of place. Language barrier and all. I know what you are thinking. Getting your nutt off doesn’t take much language between folks. Now does it. Especially in Berlin. Where the bars go until the sun begins to shine! LOL! Universal it is. Eye movements to the crouch. Hand movements break any language barrier known to man kind. There isn’t anyone out and about though. They are all in the bars. Hooting and hollering. Aw, there is one chap. Riding his bike. Looks back. Turns around. Seems as though he is a bit wasted though. Not going to invite him in to my room. I want to fuck. Or be fucked. Not baby sit! OK, back to my room!
I sit down at the desk in my room. Watch the sun come UP in the city. Making myself even hornier by taking care of a journal entry for Hustlaball, Berlin. I am still amped UP from the evening spent with rentboy.com. They brought me in for Hustalball. You can read about the fun I had! Monster’s Journal entry; October 17, 2003. Here are some pictures to go along with the story. http://www.fubarwebmasters.com/berlin03/kitkat/DSC_1221b.htm.
I am so fucken horny by the time I get the journal entry done. I can hardly see straight. Ah, I have an idea. How about my Clone. What’s the Clone, some of you ask? The Clone is the dildo made after the likeness of my cock we lovingly call Monster. The Monster Clone travels with me everywhere. Great travel companion. So long as you don’t try sticking UP your ass! LOL! Then, it takes UP loads of room. As I found out.
So, my horny hole decides that it is going to take on my own cock! I know, twisted. Hey, I see the way my bottoms eyes roll in to the back of their heads when I enter them. I see the ecstasy written all over their face when I expertly just place the head at the oven of heat coming from their hole. I see the slight pain they endure because the know the pleasure to follow. When I begin to slide in so slow. They are amazed when my lips are touching theirs in a matter of minutes. Or, my whispers in their ears asking them to relax. Open UP for me. Slowly spreading their hole with the girth. I feel every muscle inside them clinch around Monster when I have pushed too far. I back UP. Stop right where I am. They, trying to push me out. I kiss their lips. Take their mind off the 10 x 6.5 inches of meat penetrating them. It’s a love/hate relationship. I reassure them the unpleasant feeling will go away. So long as they just relax. Stop fighting me. I look in to their eyes. Their heads leans back on the pillow in relaxation. Looking into my eyes as I reassure them it will feel just fine in a matter of minutes, seconds. Just tell yourself, "relax."
Their mind opens the hole and allows for my cock to penetrate my hole. It’s much thicker than I ever thought it was. The silicone material used is a medium between sturdy and pliable. Now wait a minute. Weren’t we talking about the pleasure I give to a bottoms hole when I am sticking the Clone UP my own on a cold, horny, lonely night in Berlin. Yes, I guess I was!
Everything I have learned to say to the hesitant bottoms is what I was telling myself as the Clone lay just at the entrance to my own hole. Radiating heat from being so very hungry! I love being fucked. I need to so bad some times. Getting fucked is one of the most amazing feelings in the world. When done right!
Reaching down between my legs to grab the life size balls of the dildo. They feel very familiar. The lube I am using works well. My hands are slipping all over the ball sack! Ah, it’s my own ball sack while I use my foot to push at the base of my dildo. The foreign object that is trying to gain access to my clean, hungry hole feels very strange. Have I told y’all? This is the first time I have ever been fucked by a dildo! The first time I have ever been fucked, literally, not figuratively, by me. Putting the phrase, "Go fuck yourself." Into a whole new perspective. LOL!
Of course my poppers are very close at hand. I take a nice deep inhale. Push the clone even closer to the heat! The poppers really start taking me "there." Damn, my hole has opened enough to allow the head in. Pull it out. More lube is necessary. My roommate has been staying down the hall. It’s about 6 AM. The curtains are wide open. It’s going to be another clear day in Berlin, Germany. I’m caught UP in the outside view. I realize, I about half way into myself. The way the girth fills my hole is fucken amazing. I mean hell. I’ve been fucked by the biggest of cocks. Slowly taking the time to enjoy each and every feeling that is associated. It’s like a massage. My hole is being massaged by my own, um,... cock!
Taking my foot off the constant pressure I have been using at the base of the dildo! It starts sliding out. Whoa! The feeling is so intense. Made even more so by the after effects of the poppers. The nerve endings are on fire! My own cock is in my hand. I can’t let Monster go! No, I won’t let Monster go! Working the head like only I know how!
Did I mention above I really don’t jack off? It’s true. I don’t so much anymore. I sure as hell did when I was growing UP! I know how to please Monster (my cock)! I know how far I can work the length with both hands. Without spilling my seed too soon. Bringing it right to the very tip. STOP, my mind says! STOP, or the cum is going to shoot all over!
This is the first time I have ever had myself inside me. I am giddy from the sleep depravation. Intensely horny from the chance of my roommate walking in anytime. Someone looking into the window. They will want to join in. Replace the Clone with their own cock! All this is playing in my mind. They not knowing it’s the first time my Clone has been UP my hole. I know though! This is my time! I can’t believe that ¾ of the length is UP in me. Taking my mind off the scenario has allowed more, more and even more of ME to enter ME! Poppers. I would love to have some more poppers to intensify!
The Clone is slipping out. No, I want it in. I want it in farther! I want the head of my Clone to hit "that spot!" I want the length to slide back in ever so slowly. I reach down to push it in. Can’t keep my hands off my cock though! $%#@! LOL! Holy shit man! The combination of 6.5 inches in diameter. Close to 10 inches in length that invades my hole.
It’s a much different feeling than real cock! The warmth of the real thing is missed. Not so much thought that I don’t enjoy the feeling inside me. My head is going off thinking about writing this to you guys. Giving you guys first hand knowledge of my first Clone experience!
Ah wait, I want to see this. I don’t allow the Clone to slide all the way out. I hold it at the bottom of the shaft. Between the ball sack and my hole. I move slowly over to the mirror. Floor length. Clone still inside me. I have forgotten the lube and poppers. I need them. Keeping my cock and the bottoms hole well lubed is important. Allows for me to fuck even longer! Not causing irritation to the inside. I have learned well from myself. It begins to burn unbearably. I allow it to slip out all the way. I have positioned myself so that my back is facing the mirror. The length is slipping out of me before my very eyes! Look over my shoulder into the mirror as I allow the Clone to slip the whole way out. Landing, standing UP right on the floor. The length more apparent as I have to raise my ass higher off the floor to accommodate it’s retreat from the heated oven! Unfucken believable that it was in my ass close to ¾ of the way. I finger my hole a bit. I need to get the lube and poppers off the bed. I’m crazed with wanting, needing to feel ME back UP in ME!
The Clone sits on the floor in all it’s majesty! Looking so surreal! When I feel it in my hands. It has the comfortable feeling of my ownness. (Don’t know that is a word. Doesn’t matter. I believe I may have you guys/gals with me. You understand what I am saying) On my knees. With my back and hole to the full length mirror. I bend the Clone to find it’s reward. My hole. I begin backing into him. Nice and slow as when I was on the bed. This time being able to watch it spread the velvety lips surrounding the warmth that awaits inside. Amazing to watch as the ass lips grab hold. I pull off and watch them grab on as if to say.. NO, I don’t want to go. LOL! No worries. I am enjoying the feeling way too much to see my cock leave me so soon. I rock back and forth on him. Feeling the length go deeper and deeper with each thrust! Never taking my eyes off the mirror. Watching my bottoms eyes go back as I reach another level of pleasure/pain. Holding it there. I open my eyes. It’s me in the mirror. Not one of my bottoms. It’s me!
It’s a perfuct match! Back to rocking on him. Two hands to cover Monster. My hole to cover it’s likeness. Just as my hole hasn’t been able to cover the whole length. Two hands, one over the next is not able to cover the length of the true hardness between my legs. I fuck my hands as though I am fucking my hole. Wait, I am fucking my hole. Both holes being fucked. Lubed UP! The head of my cock feels so good. Against the prostate, inside my hands. I work the head till the feeling becomes so intense I can’t stand it anymore. I have to witness this! I have to see my seed leaving my body. I need to see the sperm shoot from my piss slit as the Clone continues to invade my once virgin hole to such a foreign object!
I turn and face myself in the mirror. Standing on my haunches. I witness one more time the disappearance of myself inside myself. I rise off the Clone to see it’s length slipping out of me. My cock is rock hard. I have stopped touching myself because I want to prolong the intense feelings. My cock is bouncing between my legs. 10 X 6.5 in front of me. 10 x 6.5 trying to get inside of me. I have to be honest. I don’t take the whole thing. It doesn’t have to go all the way in for it to feel so damn good. I find a spot inside me. I work it. I allow the Clone to use it’s massive thickness to invade the fibers of my being. I am so wrapped UP in my thoughts. I can’t take my eyes off the mirror. Concentrating on keeping my hands of myself. Keep my hands on my legs. Begin to bounce ever so slightly. Don’t have to touch myself to know that my ball sack is pulling closer and closer to my body! It’s time! It’s time to take another hit from my poppers. Throwing my head back. Enjoying my brisk morning in Berlin, Germany. The day after my show at Kit Kat Club. So many men there. Touching me. Feeling me. Me feeling them. UP inside them. Their cocks hitting the back of my throat. http://www.fubarwebmasters.com/berlin03/kitkat/DSC_1221b.htm.
It’s my turn to be alone with me. I look down. My hands are back on my cock. I slide the Clone out of myself. Only to slide back down nice and slow as the load starts to shoot out. Sliding down more with each shot of jizz that is unleashed all over the mirror. Holy shit!
The feeling of myself inside me. As I unleash what is inside me. Is overwhelming. The whole fantasy of what is happening in my mind. I am fucking myself, with myself till I cum! Cum I do! I can hear the cum hit the mirror. I look UP into my own eyes as they roll from the back of my head to the front one more time. Buckets!
I sit on my haunches. Exhausted from the experience. I sit there. Not sure when the Clone made his way out of my hole. Clone laying down on the towel. I am trying to find my breath again. Realizing I must have been holding it? LOL! I look at the mirror. Streaks of man seed have begin to roll down! Stopping and building UP where the mirror is attached to the wall.
Keeping it hard...and well lubed...
Michael and Monster Brandon
